we don't born unbelievers. or sinners. or whatever we may call bad. i stand by the fact that things may be able to be justified, or measured in our own ways.
i love playing wise sometimes. pretending as if i'm some kind of an impeccable hero. i judged. i learned. i fell. i went back to another flight of fancy again. spoken honestly, i've never liked that part; i even prefer not to do such things anymore, but there would always be matters: overwhelming, angry people, that got my head into the worst overheated state that makes me want to defend myself, proving that i've never been weak, or at least, make them see that way. truth could just be ignored that time. justifications? well, most of the times never needed. who wants to hear babbles, right? they just want drama sometimes.
what i had learned so far; whatever may seem to be wise at the moment, even at this very moment, may look, sound, or feel dumb the next moment, the next day, or three years later. today i could stand the way i am, thinking that i'm one of the wisest people out there, but ten years later, i'd stand in the same place just to mock how silly i had been in the younger days. i just hate playing wise.
i've never been a hero, or that strong kid you'd love to know. i've never been that angel living next door, too, someone you'd love to make friends with forever. neither, really. i've always told them i'm neither and they keep on telling me "no". kind of pissing me off sometimes. i'm never black or white--i'm somewhere in the transition--dr. jekyll and sometimes mr.hyde, too.
i won't mind figuring things further sometimes.
there'll always be a treasure to seek for, even they lie deep in ourselves.
photography by devina
makeup by agnes subana
editing by me
mango necklace/ i.n.c. men's shirt/ victoria's secret lace bra/ modified zara ripped jeans/ vintage boots
working on my animation project! Maya is such a complicated software; were it a man, perhaps it'll be the worst playboy ever. haha. joke, really. i'm just confused of how many bugs it has. sometimes, the selected areas are even invisible. that's complicated, really, i hate it when i have to press "4" and turn the whole modeled figure into a mainframe figure, where lines and vertices can be all seen.
you know, like those layered parts of many confusing dots and lines *sigh*.
i still can understand the fun, actually, although sometimes i wonder where do they get that patience to complete all of the processes; like, those cool animations in shrek or beowulf, or the astonishing works of the robots from michael bay's transformers. perhaps, they're all animation gods, i don't know. they're all cool people.
so, how about you, friends? have you ever experienced any works with strange or complicating softwares? let me know! i'd love to read them all!! ♥
