I'm as bad tempered as I can be. I don't keep my cool all the time especially when I'm pissed off and it will totally spoil my entire mood, causing me to vent it on someone else instead. Unlike other girls, I'm straightforward, talk whatever I want and say whatever I like. I spill vulgarities out loudly in public without bothering what others think of me. I won't teh and act like one gentle lady infront of my bf that goes 'Eeee don't like that leh~~' On the outside, I might look as 大小姐 as I can be, but deep down I can do things that you can't think of. I might whine and complain this and that, but I'm still able to take up anything that needs me to suffer. I won't make use of my bf's money in any way and I won't want him to splurge on luxury stuffs just because I like it. I like luxury goods doesn't mean I'm materialistic. I only like it when its pretty, not when because thats 'OMG PRADA LEH!' Though I might go for all this, even up till now, I never really used my own hard earned money on all this goods..
In terms of being a daughter, I'm a very lazy one indeed. I could just sit on my chair hours away facing my Macbook and whenever my mum comes into my room and start her nagging, I'll pretend I'm deaf. I'm always being scolded for sitting like a man infront of the TV at the living room. And she'll goes 'Where will guys want you seeing you like that?!' and I'll go 'They should love me for who I am'
In terms of being a friend, I might be influential in other people's opinions. I might be the bad girl teaching your girlfriend the worst stuffs ever. I will kaopei whatever I'm not happy with and I won't give face to anyone else. Before people might know me, all they know is just me being dao and fierce. I hate to see my friends cry, or not feeling emotionally good in any way. When I care for someone, whether its for bf or friends, I use my stern tones and talk to them in a very fierce look, because i can't stand people who don't take the soft approach and it just makes me feel so frustrated when you are trying to help them but they think that whatever you are talking is rubbish. I hate to repeat things more than twice, and when I do, I start raising my voice. When I care, I scold. When I give up caring, I literally wash my hands off everything. When I'm angry, when I'm frustrated, I don't care how other people feel. I just say whatever that's on my mind, whether harsh or not, I don't care. At least this is what I feel deep down inside.
I might be as strong as I can be on the outside. But when it comes to quiet times at night, I'm a very emotional person. I listen to all kinds of sentimental songs and I look at photos randomly to recall some of the fondest memories. I could quarrel with someone on the phone as fierce as I could be, makes the person thinks that I'm cold blooded and thereafter hangs up the phone and break down immediately, crying to myself to sleep. I don't like people to take back their words, because at least for me, I don't - even if I regret saying it. I think everyone should account for their wrongdoings and whatever they say. Whenever any one disappoints me in terms of their selfish or changed characters, I might curse on the outside but deep down, I will start thinking 'what happen to her...'
So yeah, thats me. I just feel like saying all this randomly. This is my true self. Eeryone of you here, do you still love me for who I am?
