whatever to be chased in this silence, no man would concretely understand. they could describe, sure, but they wouldn't be able to recreate those moments yet again.
for another moment, i felt like i wanna run away, break myself free from fears, sorrow, and restlessness--i've been more than willing to put my sore eyes to rest ever since. if only there's an absolute formula to simplify thoughts, i'd gladly join the gracious cult.
what to be denied? in the end, we people would simply hope that we weren't actually one of those hard-thinkers. the line had turned way too damn thin for us to differ which issues are measurable, beyond measure, and desperately needs measuring.
small things could turn big-time troubles. a single spark of jealousy could evoke a bad detonation, yet creating another big black hole in ones' heart.
i paused to measure myself for a moment, thought about how desperate i've been these past last days. a man of wisdom once said;
"you're as young as your faith, as old as your doubt;
you're as young as your self-confidence, as old as your fear;
you're as young as your hope, as old as your your despair."
talking about how old i actually am.
time could never be retrieved, destiny could not be chosen- it can be defined instead. whatever once lost would be returned one day in multiplied amounts; i now wish that the rule would also apply for broken-and-weary hearts of lonely souls out there.
until then, i'd sit and wait. i'd justify fate.
photography by devina
makeup by agnes subana
editing by me
16DS LDB/ mango knit vest/ thrifted scarf (approx. $2)/ DIY laddered tights/ rotelli boots/ accessories: mango rope necklace and necklaces/ next faux-pearl and chain necklace.
the story was written in-between breaks while i was reading a book titled "100 habits of successful graphic designers" (rockport, 2003) in my college's library last saturday. i'm now legally a fan of that book since it featured many useful suggestions from A-list graphic designers; the intriguing stefan sagmeister to name one.
for me, he's the clint eastwood of graphic design industry, having made many successful works and commercials, as well as some notable graphic campaigns for non-profit social organizations. he had also authored a book titled "things i have learned in my life so far". (abrams, 2008)
on footnotes, thank you to nina of ballerina'sclosetobssesion for the kreativ blogger award. i'm so honored to be nominated so!
oh and, interview with my friend kim of ice age heat wave had also finished. the interview will be posted next monday. she's a super-talented writer who writes inspiring stories. i bet you'd admire her as much i do! :)
update:
just read shocking news everywhere about the death of 40-year-old british designer alexander mcQueen. what a great loss to fashion industry. my biggest condolences for him. i really admire his works. his designs are always so daring. so unique. so fashionably over-the-edge. click here for the complete news. best one so far i've found around the net :)
happy early weekend, everyone. thank you for all of your supports!
