I don't know how to describe '09; Good or bad/ disastrous much? But I gotta admit it's been quite an eventful year.
I was terribly sick in the beginning of the year, hospital is like my 2nd home. But maybe, just maybe, that made me realise things that I thought I'd never be, if not I wouldn't be what I am now. "In times of crisis, you'll know who are the ones who were there for you; who will stay and who will not." This is so true. So I guess everything that happened brought me closer to everyone else, made new friends, realised the big philosophies in life, get rid of whatever bullshit I had earlier on, getting back what I deserved, being a stronger girl which I thought I'd never be.
And I wanna thank Zengting for being one of the best parts in my life, again. I still remember how we spent Christmas and New Year together last year. We laughed, we cried, we quarrelled, we went through similar shit together, we had similar consequences as well. Closer than ever, we are. I'm glad that I've someone like you, someone who I can rely on, someone who's always just a phonecall again, someone who knows what I'm thinking about without even saying it. Even through the darkest times, you were still supporting me. (I'd never forget it was quite the first time I cried so badly on your shoulder on NY) Sometimes I find it really amazing how well we can relate to each other so easily, even without frequent meetups now, we could still be as close as ever. We swore we'd look back at our past, but look what's happening now. Though I don't meet her as often now, but a part of me will never forget her, being as my best friend :) For now, let's just wish each other the best for the upcoming year, especially for you and KS! (L)
Of course, not to forget this group of friends! They brought so much laughter, so much joy when I was at my lowest. Zengting, KS, Christian, Weimin, Norvan, Constance and her siblings! Those ECP and Chompchomp dinners, Sentosa trip, walking the dogs Ivory and Goldver, picnic at Botanic Garden.... If not for them, I think it would have been more difficult for me to get out of all my unhappiness back then. Though we've know each other since Secondary 1, but I wasn't even close to them hahaha, all thanks to Zengting! May the new year be a good year for all of you! :)
We used to be two separate cliques, but now become as one! Amazingly, some incidents brought us closer together and even if we're in different classes now, at least all of us made the effort in attending each other's birthday dinner! :) Though Siewyin and Nicole were not from our previous class, but we mingled well!! :D
I really wanna go through every single one of you but I think I can't if not it'll take years man. Jiebing Huiyan Jessica Siewyin Nicole Mingming Tinghui Xinghuei Shumin Weijin listen up! You girls have been great, really great. :) Those laughters on the bus, on the streets, inside the restaurants.. We never cared how people looked at us because we were being ourselves, and that's us. :) Those individual confidants and crazy partners I have (you know who you are!) I thank all of you for every single thing that happened wonderfully this year. :) Be it working together, bus trips together, shopping together or even simple dinners together. :)
I remember how I always loved to see all of you in school, bumped into anyone of you when we were having headaches for our own group projects. It's amazing how we can talk to each other about anything, everything at any point of time. Though there were some hiccups here and there, I hope those made us understand each other better and brought us closer. AND I HOPE! The birthday dinners still go on kay? Don't forget we still have a dinner for our fund ^^
Not forgetting you're also one of the most important people in my life too. I'll never forget the times we ranted to each other like nobody's business, kpkbkpkbkpkbkpkb until people started labelling us already. Hahaha. I dont deny that I was damn sad when there was once when I thought our friendship couldn't go further because of certain stuffs, and that's when everyone saw how much I valued this friendship back then. But that was a blessing in disguise too, which made us being more understanding and forgiving than ever. :) I know you're also one of the very few that I could relate to, and its difficult to find friends like this nowwwww. So I thank you for being there, virtually or not, every single time you listen to my rants :)
And wait, there's this special person I wanna thank to: Cindy Ng Huey Shin. You were one of those who taught me many things that I needed to wake up to, lessons that I've to learn, falls that I knew I've to get up on my own. The way we knew each other was kinda ridiculous, but at least I knew I've gained a new friend, a new girlfriend, a new confidant ;) You were one of the reasons for what I am now. I hope the upcoming year will be a better one for you and me, may you have the better guys in life and being able to find the One!! ;)
Others to mention! Like Melina Eunice Jacqueline blablablablabla. I promise I'll make more time for all of you next year to catch up with each other. :)
Now to my dearest boy, the most important person in my life besides my family. :) 2years and 10months ago, he came into my life. After spending 18months, he was out of it. After a year, he walked into my life again. He was the one I thought firmly I would never get back with. At times, I still find it amazing how could we even get back together after a year.
After being together for the second time, there were moments I felt like giving up for certain issues, there were times that I hated to see it happening again on us. Yknow, it wasn't easy for us to come again for the second time, 6months ago. That one year was a blessing in disguise too, we learnt from our mistakes, we matured from there and now we are more understanding towards each other than ever, handling this r/s better than ever. I may seem to be whining nonstop on the outside, but deep down I appreciate every single lil thing you've done. Thinking back, the reasons for us quarreling were always over the most redundant matters, but now we could easily get over it even within minutes, just by giving in to each other. From time to time, the tiniest surprises that you gave me really made me smile, even up till now. Even given my attitude, I find myself tolerating your temper more than I could expect ever since we were together in 2007. Initially, you thought I wasn't being understanding at all when we were having issues over your nightlife. Because you didn't see it in another perspective until I explained it. You should know everything that I've done for you - every single thing, I put you first even before myself. I whine, I may be seem to be such a bitch on the outside, but deep down only I myself know why am I really doing all these rants for you - is all for your own good. Like that day when I rushed down cdc just to look for you even if chances of meeting you were slim, like that day when I went down to your house surprisingly just for that couple of hours, like how I stayed up late at night, how I waited for your texts early in the morning just to tell me you're safe. All these might sound silly but you make it all worthwhile. :)
I thank you and love you for everything you've done for these years :) I know 2010's gonna be a better year for both me and you, yeah? :)
That 3 hours of reading last night brought back tons of memories - Forgotten memories, memories that I'd never forget, memories which are worth remembering. Bad performance this year; in terms of health, r/s and everything. I'll do better in 2010.
