Life.

Lol it's been a long time since I've used the straightener now and then, super lazy to do so and so troublesome hahaha. anyway I'm only heading to work!

Ok, took my full time pay for the second time and I always feel that my hard work always get paid off on this day, really. Though many have left, came and went but what else can I wish for? At least i've a bunch of colleagues whom I really worked well with and at least they're the reason for me to go to work feeling motivated. For your info, I'm only one of the 3 females who're working in this environment hahaha but maybe thats why they're always so helpful and in return always get bullied by me hehehe. They can be as old as 30+ but still can get along well with all the rubbish and all we always talk about in the office. Will be till end of June only, so mai hiam and just continue with work la hor? :)

Few more weeks and I'll see my poly mates again, I can't wait - though I'm reluctant to turn up for the grad ceremony, at least I can take photos with them for the last time!!!! I really hope everyone will turn up leh, not my group of girls but people like Priscilla ah Charlotte ah, missed yall! :)

You know what, I think I'm one who really value friendships as though like they're really important to me. Yes they certainly are. Almost all of us are working now and actually I really do miss talking to them. It really brightens up my day when receiving random texts because at least to me, I'm remembered by them. My working hours and the working environment I'm in doesn't really allow me to text much, especially when I'm having a busy day at work but I really do appreciate all this text msgs coming to me, even though its just gossiping or whatever rubbish we can talk about know. Maybe its not just about texting each other, its like... Just few days ago Siewyin came looking for me at work and I was so happy but I couldnt find a chance to talk to her. Alvin and Jasreel came too! :( I don't know how long all this people and I will keep in contact with but at least I wanna keep them in my life now!! I'm not just referring to my bestfs, really - you ppl know who you are ok. ;')

Thursday.

Was just looking at my tumblr and came across this. True and meaningful? 

Anyway, we'll have a long weekend ahead and so glad that I'm off tomorrow! :D Last few days passed kinda fast because I've all the nicey nicey colleagues around. Things can get a lil frustrating and tiring at times but that's working life huh? Yesterday, had supper at the usual zichar place to celebrate Edwin's birthday. He's one of the nicest colleagues around ever since I joined this company. (Y) 

Long bus rides can get me thinking. And more often than not, the thoughts are always similar, haha. Its either finance or love for the time being. Growing up is shit. :(

Can someone enlighten me? Why do guys like to cheat on girls? Or maybe vice versa for some of you who beg to differ. Define cheating. Being intimate with the other party verbally? Physically? Or even to the extent that people might thought she's your girlfriend instead. When things happen, onlookers will only watch. What else can they do? They can't possibly be stopping their friends and say 'Hey, what the hell do you think you are doing?' You know, cheating no longer seems as simple as it seems in our age now.. In the past when we were still young and immature, cheating can be just flirting with each other or maybe 'steady' with another person. And then we'd just breakup, cry over it for a few nights and get on with life, get a new bf/gf. But I was wrong to think that as we grow up, we would act in a matured way than ever. We look for commitment in relationships, we put in trust and we put in 100% in whatever we do for the other half. But hell no, its still the same, or even worst --- at least this is what I see these past few years around myself and the people around me that justify whatever I've mentioned? And maybe, just maybe - we won't wanna give up so easily on the relationship and thus we forgive and forget. But sadly, history repeats by itself again. I'm not trying to say that only guys are capable of doing this but I'm shocked that a couple of girls do this too? So what in the world are we looking for now? Special friends with extra benefits or just a companion to get through our lonely times, or simple enough - somebody whom you wanna spend your life with till the end? 

Okkkk, emotional thoughts aside. I'm kinda happy this week because I've brought some luck to my people around me these few days. :) Enjoy your weekend people!

Final decision!

JB Trip was cancelled today, so I went ahead with my haircut at Storm again! Then to stock up my makeup stuffs like finally~~ The time I met Xinghuei was like pathetic leh tsk, nehmind gonna see her this coming Fri ^^ Anyway, Siewyin is a good shopping partner too! :D:D

Then Jasreel and the two musketeers came and look for us, off we went to Simpang Bedok! When was the last time we had dinner like this?!?!?!? Catch up with alottttttttttttttttt of stuffs hehe love it man. The bus trip with Jasreel was awesome too :)

After so many days of dilemma and talks with my mum and bestie... Ok! Final decision - I'll continue with ZAG&ZAG and my temp FT at Singtel while waiting for RMIT to start in July and then chop chop with the studies, get the cert and start carving out my career path! (Y) As much as I don't like retail, its never too late to do what I really wanna do in my career right? Tsk, sometimes I just need some opinions from everyone else, so thankiew ni men for helping me to know what I really want in future :)

Home sweet home.

The last time I stayed home the whole day was when I still in school. Like mentioned, mum's been nagging and I think I should make out effort to start spending time with them. Maybe I've been too busy with my own life, I realised they're getting old, both emotionally and physically. Few days back I just had a tiff with mum over some shitty arguments on medicine. I hate it when both of them are stubborn not to have med when they're sick and they need it. Maybe I'll be exactly like them in the future but still its not acceptable what! To me, I know I'm someone who always show concern in the wrong way and I hate it when people misunderstood my intentions. I know I don't show it out but I'm can't even imagine if one day they were to leave, really.

I'm still thinking if I should just change my job with so many problems arising.. Or should I just go back to tuitioning?!?! All this thoughts are just so frustrating sianz :/  Times like this I really wish to go on a getaway trip (again).

P.S I'M GONNA CUT HAIR ON FRI I CANNOT TAKE IT HAHAHA.

Struggling to keep on going.

Firstly, thank you so much for Siewyin Xinghuei and Shumin for the help today at the photoshoot for Zag&Zag. Appreciate so much, seriously I wont know how to handle everything by myself if I were alone. 辛苦你们了! 

Did a brief reflection on my life just hours ago. Yes, I'm working on a 5day week for Singtel now. Each day when I get home from work, I'd need to check Z&Z's emails and invoices/ parcels to be sent out the next day. Check out fellow websites to do some research before I head to sleep. So the cycle repeats everyday till I got a day off, I'll spend it on sourcing or dates out with my lovely friends. If not, I'd need to get ready pictures for the next collection and, do some accounting (WHICH I HATE THE MOST) and sleep. This is how I spend my 7 days in a week and its still not enough. I've yet to spend time with my family and I dont even stay at home on my off days except for today. When was the last time I stayed home for dinner? My dad asked me to go on a KL trip sometime next month and I'm still deciding.. Mum told me they'd want me to go because I havent been spending time with family, but how to when I've got so much things to do on hand and I don't have extra cash to go on a leisure trip now at the moment. Fyi, I've stopped taking allowance ever since I graduated because I don't want my parents to support my miscellaneous stuffs financially anymore. I feel bad enough to take money from them when they always give me what I want, 伸手要钱 just to play hard and eat hard (and spend hard) for the past 19 years. I'm already freaking 20 this year already? Should start repaying them now instead of the other way round. 败家子 is so not our family culture.

Education? I've somehow decided on RMIT's Marketing Degree. Another couple of years and I'll get over and done with my education, thats it. 

I'm not hating what I'm doing; in fact I love doing it. At least I've things to do, to keep me busy and at least I know what I want in my own life. Just that I'm getting tired; physically tired, but I know I can't afford to stop here. I have to keep on going till I see results. I just need support, sometimes.

What are words if you really dont mean when you say them.

I spent my off day shopping at Raffles City SC, followed by a movie at Marina Sq and had a steamboat dinner at Bugis. Awesome day (Y) 

Launching Zag&Zag's 2nd collection this Friday. Or Saturday? I don't know if I'm able to finish my photos on time eh. Meeting allllllllllll my girls and boys on Friday too hehehe luv it (L)

On a random note, as usual Ive so much to say but whenever I click on 'new post', I can think of nothing :S Next time I'll blog whenever I'm free. Need to pen my thoughts in case I lose my memory in the future haha kiddingz.

So... what are friends for?

Kinda miss the way we chiong our project together hahaha.

Maybe as we grow up, its proven that there's no such thing as 'friends forever'. This only applies to the older generation, maybe all of us are grown up to learn how to be selfish. Maybe all we want is just to live by ourselves and only when we feel lonely, thats when friends come in. Maybe when we stop contacting, we'll begin to lose contact. Maybe even the best of friends will become strangers one day. 

As much as I want us to be as close as ever, but I dont think its possible. Nay. Lets just see how it goes. 

Anyway, who is considering Marketing Mgt @ SIM? :D

I am....

I'm as bad tempered as I can be. I don't keep my cool all the time especially when I'm pissed off and it will totally spoil my entire mood, causing me to vent it on someone else instead. Unlike other girls, I'm straightforward, talk whatever I want and say whatever I like. I spill vulgarities out loudly in public without bothering what others think of me. I won't teh and act like one gentle lady infront of my bf that goes 'Eeee don't like that leh~~' On the outside, I might look as 大小姐 as I can be, but deep down I can do things that you can't think of. I might whine and complain this and that, but I'm still able to take up anything that needs me to suffer. I won't make use of my bf's money in any way and I won't want him to splurge on luxury stuffs just because I like it. I like luxury goods doesn't mean I'm materialistic. I only like it when its pretty, not when because thats 'OMG PRADA LEH!' Though I might go for all this, even up till now, I never really used my own hard earned money on all this goods..

In terms of being a daughter, I'm a very lazy one indeed. I could just sit on my chair hours away facing my Macbook and whenever my mum comes into my room and start her nagging, I'll pretend I'm deaf. I'm always being scolded for sitting like a man infront of the TV at the living room. And she'll goes 'Where will guys want you seeing you like that?!'  and I'll go 'They should love me for who I am'

In terms of being a friend, I might be influential in other people's opinions. I might be the bad girl teaching your girlfriend the worst stuffs ever. I will kaopei whatever I'm not happy with and I won't give face to anyone else. Before people might know me, all they know is just me being dao and fierce. I hate to see my friends cry, or not feeling emotionally good in any way. When I care for someone, whether its for bf or friends, I use my stern tones and talk to them in a very fierce look, because i can't stand people who don't take the soft approach and it just makes me feel so frustrated when you are trying to help them but they think that whatever you are talking is rubbish. I hate to repeat things more than twice, and when I do, I start raising my voice. When I care, I scold. When I give up caring, I literally wash my hands off everything. When I'm angry, when I'm frustrated, I don't care how other people feel. I just say whatever that's on my mind, whether harsh or not, I don't care. At least this is what I feel deep down inside. 

I might be as strong as I can be on the outside. But when it comes to quiet times at night, I'm a very emotional person. I listen to all kinds of sentimental songs and I look at photos randomly to recall some of the fondest memories. I could quarrel with someone on the phone as fierce as I could be, makes the person thinks that I'm cold blooded and thereafter hangs up the phone and break down immediately, crying to myself to sleep. I don't like people to take back their words, because at least for me, I don't - even if I regret saying it. I think everyone should account for their wrongdoings and whatever they say. Whenever any one disappoints me in terms of their selfish or changed characters, I might curse on the outside but deep down, I will start thinking 'what happen to her...'

So yeah, thats me. I just feel like saying all this randomly. This is my true self. Eeryone of you here, do you still love me for who I am? 

LAST LECTURE OF OUR POLY JOURNEY!

Changed our plans to have Hei Sushi instead because of the tempting buffet which includes so many things!!! Soooo satisfied hehez.

But this poor girl was feeling so worried and frustrated about the lizard in her car earlier on, she didn't even drive to Ehub because of it. All of us thought it was just a normal lizard until......

We went back together as a group to find the lizard for her because there were ppl like Jessica who was not so afraid of it. So we started opening her doors, car boot, car seats whatsoever.... Some of them already look though this area but found nothing. Then...

SiewYin: Aye open up the thing again see have anot leh.

Weijin: We just now open already nothing leh

SiewYin: Open again la see see.

*I took the umbrella and forgotten who was holding the board for me as I was trying to knock on it*

THEN SUDDENLY SIEWYIN SCREAMED '在那边'!!!!!!! AND I SCREAMED LOR ALTHOUGH I DK WHERE IT WAS. 

Don't know who screamed also la but finally all of us saw HOW BIG THE LIZARD WAS. So disgustingly looking as it has spots or whatever on its body and its freaking big with its long tail :S Freaking disgusting to the max.

And true enough, we scream scream scream and our 'sister' wanted to came to our rescue, couldn't find it already. But some of them saw it went to the back seats. So we decided to park the car outside so we can open the doors and find it thoroughly..

Second time, 'sister' was checking the right seat and I went over to check on the left. As I looked and looked I happened to see one brown thingy crawling all over the black seat. IT WAS THE LIZARD HAHAH AND I SCREAMED LA SO FREAKING BIG.

All of us came to my rescue again but our screams scared the lizard away. Till it was nowhere to be found. :( So hot and tiring under the hot sun.....

And there goes our highlight of the day. Definitely not being bimbos but I didn't even expect the lizard to be so huge and unlike those lizards we have at home :/ Not really as scared as I am for cockroaches but still it was disgusting enough to make me have goosebumps all over. :S

Were freaking tired to carry on and thus we went separate ways while Xinghuei rushed home like dk what lololol. Weijin, Siewyin and I went to Tampines, I wanted to buy KOI! But decided not to in the end. So tired, so tired. :(

I don't know when was the last time I didn't get to work on weekends, but the break I had is enough for me to chiong the upcoming week (Y) Today was the first time I wore home clothes and went over to Nex as a shopper kay!! I simply love the feeling when I've completed all my stuffs and take out some time to enjoy, having some quiet time by myself. Not to forget, I've gotten some cheap thrills!! 7 casings for $10 k hahahha.

Okay, that's for all. Tomorrow will be a brand new week and I'll stay in school for hours for FYP and IJ and whatever lot. And I've decided to go Hongkong; maybe cruise too. BKK for a later part till I've saved up enough for whatever that needs to be done. I wanna eat hard play hard sleep hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay thats all bye.

我的死党.

Love it when I get to sit with them during lectures. Love it when we scribbled on each other's notes like nobody's business. Love it when we make fun of others secretly and Sy will always say '你们很bad leh' Love it when I find either one of them in school in between my classes/after classes. Love it when we kp each other when we bought sala things for each other. Love it when I get their texts randomly when I'm in school. Just love it when I've these friends because to me, they're called the real friends.

Thanks to the scv I have at home, I'm addicted to this hk drama at the moment but I can't afford to watch when the amount of workload is like........ zzz CAN'T WAIT TO GRADUATE, part of my life is definitely going for this hk dramas ^^ 

Nua another... 30mins and I'll be going back to my project, I promise :( 9AM LECTURE TOMORROW FML.

We'll just forget about the past, enjoy the present and create the happiest memories together.

I don't even feel like its the last day of 2010 and in another 24hours' time, it's 2011. Another year has passed, another year of eventful activities, be it good or bad, its all over. Looking back at all my archives for the past 12 months, I don't even remember those took place previously. All the laughter and tears that were experienced in the past 364days.. 

I don't wanna spend time typing paragraphs here because I've been doing the same thing every year. But time passed too fast, isn't it?! We'll all graduate in few week's time, in not more than 2 months to be exact. Sometimes I just wish there's some device that we can stop the time as and when we could. 

I don't know what the future holds, I just hope everything would stay the same, no more drama - come what may. What about the future? Who knows? Just live to the fullest, make decisions that you won't regret, spend the time like its' your last and be happy.

CONQUER SIP REPORT!

Mummy's still not in town, so my dad is taking up the role of taking care of us. Been coming home late at night, staying up late and alllllllll. So daddy's been very nice to buy this for me! (L) Taste not that bad afterall, I guess it's very good for its anioxidants because it has 7 veggies + 6 fruits inside this fruit juice k!! Been spending my afternoon finishing up the logbook, now back to finish up my SIP report (am very determined to) and will start on my group report tomorrow. JIAYOU EVERYBODY ^^


Was just pondering... I wish for a quiet countdown this year. I dont know but as time goes, I don't find all these activities exciting anymore. Having to squeeze with the crowd, the bangalahs especially just to watch a 15minutes fireworks ah _l_ I've a sudden urge to go to the beach, watch the fireworks from Marina side, spend the last few minutes of 2010 and first few minutes of 2011 quietly but happily.

I love deep thoughts.

Hi air-vree-ba-di. Yours truly woke up this morning with a terrible sorethroat so I only had 8 hours of sleep instead of 12. :( Got addicted to this iPhone game and got myself playing for HOURS. Started panicking and started on my SIP report. F.I.N.A.L.L.Y. Wanted to cry when I see the amount of workload waiting for me to finish man. Need to finish fast before I can start my major project. I CAN'T WAIT TO GRADUATE LA.

Need to do my xmas shopping urgently tomorrow, feel like dropping by Ikea for bedroom ideas since I'll be changing room w my brother by the end of this year. :/ Need to get a haircut and of course watch my budget because there're too many things I need/want to buy. :(

Was just doing some random thoughts and I think that.. At the end of the day, I'll turn weak when it comes to the big L. Afterall, I'm still a girl. I'd need a shoulder to cry on when I'm upset. I'll smile like nobody's business when I'm happy. I'd need a listening ear to share my incidents of the day. I'd need someone who's always there, never let me down, never make me cry, never make me feel that things are not worth doing for him. Hi, are you the one?

When the night is still young...

FAMOUS AMOS COOKIES ARE MY BEST COMPANION :D

Hadn't tried this before and I think it's good enough, though kinda dry but still not as bad as I thought la :)

Skipped lectures today because I was really exhausted. Thought that 13hours of sleep was more than enough but nooooo :( Still gonna drag myself to work instead with my terrible stomach cramp. Great to see those colleagues again, and some new faces. When I'm not working, I don't feel like working. When I'm working, I always don't mind working the next day... Haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. :/

I think I'll dedicate one whole day sometime next week to finish my SIP report instead. Bought CLEO and I'm gonna read it to bed!! ^^ Meanwhile, I'm still thinking if I wanna get my Macbook a casing. Should I? There's still alot more items on my Christmas wishlist that I wanna buy ahhhhhhh!!!!

On a side note, my mummy won't be in town for a whole of two weeks. The house is now so peaceful and quiet w/o her naggings. Missed her already :(

It feels great to be back in school again, minus the waking-up-at-7am part, plus having to go to work after school hours. Anyway, I've nothing to do after school hours so why not go to work just like how I went to teach tuitions last semester right? I'll stop by the end of this month and probably go back to my tuition....

No school today and I met up with the two girls for a mini shopping spree! The best thing was that I forgot to bring my wallet out, which was the most important thing of all items -.- Finally bought birkens! Was hesitating and yaaaaa they psycho-ed me to buy in the end so....

Before whatever drama that took place earlier on, I was one who don't appreciate who is true to me, who's been there whenever I need somebody and stay up for hours to listen to my rants on the phone in the middle of the night. I recalled how much tears I've fell for the past months, or rather a couple of years and I realised the importance of appreciating the real ones by your side.. Just by listening to me weeping on the phone, my rants over the night, you people kept quiet and tried all ways to make me smile the next few days, dropping texts that showed love and concern.. I hope its not too late to realise all this by now. I just wanna.. live on my own, not to be dependent on anyone and being happy, always.

I always tell myself to update my blog but I'm damn lazy to do so. But anywayyyyy, went back for school two Saturdays ago and it was a great catching up session with my girls! ^^ Met Zengting my dearest girl in the afternoon and I loved how we talked nonstop through the shops and malls. It's how amazing that we could just not meet up for weeks or months but talk like nobody's business when it comes to our dates. When it comes to group outings, I don't talk about my personal problems that much as compared to when I'm with her alone. When was the last time we spent a day like this? Few times I thought we'd drift apart given our busy schedules (or rather mine though hehehe) In time to come, I won't wanna lose this dearest friend of mine, really.

How great it was to see Weijin, Mingming and all in school that day. Hi Xinghuei, if you're reading this, I miss you x10 too!! :( See SiewYin until I sian already leh LOL kiddingz. 

Work was great, though super tiring. 2 more weeks to go and a part of me can't bear to leave this wonderful workplace. 've been eating supper together with them these days and I totally loved it. Contradicting much, but I can't wait for it to end too because it's draining my energy like nobody's business okay :(

Last but not least, I bet some of you's been wondering my life, how it's been going and so on. Not to worry, I'm living my life as happy as I could and I wanna live on my own right now. 

BACK FROM HIATUS!

I've been neglecting this space for a nong nong time tskkkkk it's time to start blogging regularly hahahah. 

Life's still the same, working 6 days a week and one off day which I always spent it with my loved ones as much as I could. 

Pictures are the only way for me to keep track of what I did, if not I would have already forgotten what's been happening for the past weeks. Should start bringing my cammy along to work, right? :D

Met up for a short dinner with this two girls on one of my off days. Had Astons and I don't know when was the last time I had that.. Nevertheless, we managed to catch up with each other. On a side note, CONSTANCE PASSED HER MANUAL DRIVING TEST :D THUMBS UP! 

Was looking through my pictures and I really miss this bunch of girls. Their laughter, our nonsense. Two days ago, I realised its time to meet Xinghuei for some bitching session and so Siewyin and I went down to look for her after work ^^

Oh, was sent for a roadshow at Kovan for the past week. Hell tiring ah tamade. Work's good so far. LESS THAN A MONTH TO END OF SIP! :D

One last note for myself before I end this entry.

1) FILL UP MY LOGBOOK BEFORE THE NEXT CAMPUS SESSION WHICH IS NEXT SATURDAY.

2) MEGA SHOPPING SPREE WHEN MY PAY COMES :D

Into the third week of SIP already, beginning to love the workplace and the people I'm working with, especially with @SiewYinL when I have breakfast with her every morning and for lunch occasionally. I think by the end of everything, I'll miss working this job despite complaining about it every now and then. This is life isn't it? 

My life's been evolving around SIP and nothing else. Every night when I'm home, I can't wait to laze on my bed and dozed off soon after. This kinda lifestyle have deprived me of hanging out with my loved ones though I really wish to see them from time to time. I even missed the dinner with Zt&co last saturday. I miss everyone, really.

When being asked upon my priorities in life, I don't deny that I'm selfish in a way such that I position career and studies before anything else. I don't know since when I'm starting to have this mindset but I hope it won't kill myself one day. I hate studying, but there's nothing else we can rely on without that piece of certificate in today's society, isn't it? I wish.. my boyfriend to be as understanding as I want him to - because I won't wanna forgo any one of my loved ones just because of what I want to pursue in the future. 24hours a day is not enough to me now for I don't know why. For now, I find it so difficult to work 10 hours a day, 6 days a week, surfing net to catch up with my friends online, chatting on the phone w/ loved ones, or even meeting up for dinners as and when I want to. :(